Curiosity

One of the hardest things in life is denying the things you feel you are entitled too, or the things you want. We believe that stopping things at the root is the easiest to do because it can only get so much harder when you've already stepped into it, right? And for some, that is. But I believe sometimes it's the hardest to stop things at the root, before the damage is done. Because instead you'll leave yourself wondering the what ifs and what nots until it drives you nuts. The curiosity kills you. It's like telling someone not to think about an old granny in a bikini and all of a sudden that's all you think about. (Did you just have a mental image in your head? Gross huh?) It's the endless possibilities of that situation that drive you crazy, thinking that you're pretty sure what you want wouldn't be good for you, but wondering if it might actually be that one exception. That it might just be the best wrong decision you make. Then again sometimes you get what you want, only to find out it was more than you wanted and more than you could've handled and ultimately, not what you actually wanted at all. And then you go back and think that maybe stopping your wants at the root was the easiest choice, that it wasn't worth the aftermath of the decision. But hey, at least now you know and you won't be wondering anymore.

Over Consumption

Whenever I go out to eat and I can't seem to finish my meal, I never force myself to finish it all. Yes yes, we all hear the argument of "there are starving kids in Africa", but despite the starving kids in Africa...the fact is i'm full. Why force myself to finish off the plate? My belief is that when I go to a restaurant, i'm ultimately paying to be full and satisfied. So if I were to force the rest of the food down, i'd end up feeling too full and uncomfortable...which simply conflicts with my goals. I'm also an Asian female who weighs less than 200 pounds (I weigh exactly 199 pounds, sup big girl). So does it make sense that the same portion of an pasta entree at the Cheesecake Factory is going to fill both me or a 175 pound male or a midget exactly the same way? Probably not. Just sayin'. I think that when you have just enough, then you should be content. Why force yourself to eat everything thats out in front of you? If there is an ample amount left over, then just take it home. This is why I don't like going to buffets cause it makes me feel like I fail at getting my money's worth and you don't get to bring anything back. The only exceptions I make for buffets are all you can eat Korean BBQ and sushi cause I am a huge meat person and I love sushi so I definitely can pull my weight there. I believe in eating to your heart's content and your stomach's worth. I also believe there is always a separate stomach for dessert. My main point is that we shouldn't feel forced to finish everything that is given to us. For example, you go to KFC and order the 12 wings deal but you find yourself full after 10 wings, but there's only 2 wings left so you might as well finish it off right? But if you're already full, then why? Often times we will over consume because we feel it is our right or duty to or just because we can. That's why Americans are kinda chubbs.

The American society is built on over consumption, not just in our eating habits but in so many other ways. The amount of clothes in our closet, the amount of junk in our garage, the amount of paper we don't recycle, the 30 pack of water bottles we buy instead of a filter, etc. Although consuming is what helps stimulate our economy, I find it a problem in our value system. It's all about consuming the best, new thing (i.e. all iProducts). And it's the same small percentage of the population that keeps consuming while others find themselves barely consuming. We just all need to find a balance. If we could all just be content with having enough, we'd have a lot more fulfillment. It's like when you're super hungry and you keep eating and eating cause you think you're still hungry, but if you were to stop and just wait for 10 minutes your brain is able to process that you're actually full. We constantly are consuming to satisfy every one of our human needs, but the thing is God always provides us with all we need, it's just hard to recognize it.

Tiffanyisms

It's getting late into the night and I finally have time to myself. For the longest time, one of my favorite parts of the day is right before I fall asleep and i'm laying in bed thinking about a vast majority of things. Sometimes my thoughts are superficial and sometimes they run deep. Hands down though my favorite part is that moment of utter relaxation as I drift into a sweet reverie. That transition is something wonderful. That is why I get excited for sleep sometimes in the day. These days now i've been way too busy. I'm always out doing something, I honestly don't know where all my time goes. Although I might whine, I actually really like it though because I feel like i'm really productive in all areas of my life. My life basically equals school, internship, part time job, friends and long weekend trips. I'm going to Seattle this week to finally visit my best friend at her school. And then the week after i'm flying back home to Norcal for a few days. Time is going by so fast on the reals.

Anyways, I don't really have anything to share so here are random thoughts or random facts about me. Tiffanyisms are what we'll call them.

1. I am solar powered. My energy level and mood are largely affected about the amount of sun there is.

2. I've only craved pho once. I never crave pho and the one time I did, it was a cold night so I wanted something warm. And I was dating a Vietnamese guy at the time so maybe I was subconsciously thinking of him. hahaha But no really, I think it was just because it was pretty cold that night. And I am a huge weather baby.

3. I believe conditioner bottles should be larger than shampoo bottles. Who the hell really uses a 1:1 ratio of that? Those bastards, making me run out of conditioner way before my shampoo so I have to go buy more and keep on going with this uneven amounts of shampoo bottle to conditioner bottles.

4. I am a liquid fiend. I may drink slowly but I consume lots of liquids such as juice, pmt, coffee, all except for water though. I have to consciously remember to drink water.

5. I think Japanese restaurants should stop taking Monday off because many times for some damn weird reason it is just on that day, I really crave Japanese food and then I get there to find out they're closed. *cough FUKADA cough* A little part of me dies every time. Get with the rest of the Asians like the Chinese/Korean/Vietnamese and work 7 days a week, 24 hours. Just because you've been here longer than the rest of us, you 5th generations Japanese, don't mean a thang! Kay thanks!

6. I believe that behind every great Chinese/Japanese/PMT restaurant, is a great set of Mexican cooks.

7. I believe the meanest prank would be to shoot a whole bunch of boba at someone's car, completely covered with boba like you had a white car but it turned black status. That would be a bitch to clean up. Don't do this to me, I will hurt you.

Wow sorry I think my sea salt coffee was laced with haterade cause I just realized that most of this list was more hating than loving. haha Whoops!

Anyways, can't wait for Wednesday to get here cause i'll be leaving for Seattle then! :)

Gay Or Douche?

All right it's spring quarter, which means the summers around the corner. The suns been making more of an appearance like a celebrity whose down on some bucks so he's making some more extra guest appearances for quick cash. And no one's complaining cause it's some good eye candy. I absolutely love the sun. I think the guys do too because summer means + heat which means - clothes which doing some more simple math means girls wear less clothes. However in this new generation, this also goes for the boys. Apparently tanks tops are no longer limited to the ladies but the fellows too. Which leaves me with one question................gay or douche?

Irvine being one of the leading hipsters and trend setters who most likely are actually bandwagoners, go ahead of the curve of fashion trends. And Irvine boys do like to sport the tanks. Now i'm not really hating but making only PURELY superficial judgmental statements here, but I believe only two types of guys wear these tanks and they are either A) Gay or B) A Douchebag.

For the reals, gay guys are trendy and douchebags like to show off that they bench some in a more fashionable taste than side cut off t-shirts. One of my gay friends told me he bought a see through tank and plans to wear it in the day. He showed me a picture and its not as bad as you think and he's quite the good looking, fashionable gay so he can definitely pull it off. And as for the douchebags, come on now, you can just tell by the look on their faces.

The sad thing about another common thing the gays and the douchebags share is that girls often fall in the trap of falling for one of either, or they're really unlucky, both categories. All I got to say about that one is GG.

SIDE NOTE: I'm going to make it more of a habit of post more frequently now. And comments can now be made by anyone now, so you don't have to be a blogger to give some input.

Miss Whatswong

Finally Time To Blog

So much has happened since my last post, but also it feels as nothing has changed either. Weird feeling that i'm not sure how to explain so we'll stick to the superficial things about break. hahah To sum a good amount of it up...Spring Break included a lost phone :(((, Vegas, an interview, no internet, hang outs, started off my break with food poisoning and ending it with another sickness and sore throat. Sounds more bad than good almost, haha but it was a good break overall. :) I wanted to do a lot more but time or health didn't really permit it so. Break was way too short though and i'm not really to go back to school but alas I must. Norcal is where the heart is, but I must admit I missed Socal (or more like some faces in Socal) a great deal too.

During the break, this imagery popped into my mind. It was the image of a little white rabbit that was trapped in a pet cage. And the cage was lifted up but the rabbit wouldn't leave for a little while, even though it was given the chance to be free.

But that flinch of hesitation, which may just be a second or even 10 minutes, the rabbit stays inside its cage even though the cage is lifted. Isn't that a ridiculous idea? There's nothing standing between the rabbit and its freedom but for some odd reason, it doesn't want to leave. Perhaps there is a comfort inside the cage, its just comfortable staying inside rather than leaving to go to the outside world. It has grown attachment to it's 12 by 12 space in the cage. It doesn't realize that it can leave and that there is much more out there. But that flinch of hesitation is just hesitation and the rabbit flees its cage. And once the rabbit leaves the cage, it runs for all it's got and it'll never come back, unless caught again. It just has to get over its initial fear and leave.

True Story

What can I say? Humans are complicated creatures.

The Simple Joys In Life

My friend dropped her puppy off for me to babysit for a couple of hours. Isn't he SUPER cute?!?!?! You don't understand how excited I was when she asked me too. haha If you've read my old entries, you'd know i've been itching to play with a puppy or baby (which ever comes first) forevers. Louie chased me around and once it was all tuckered out from playing with my roommates and me, it napped next to me while I was trying to study. :)

haha okay enough with the superficialness of these latest entries...I will write something substantial later, perhaps tonight as I will most likely be procrastinating from studying my midterm that is tomorrow. I can not wait for friday to be here!