Change In Scenery

All of a sudden, I just got really excited about coming back to Irvine.

Goal: I'm supposed to be back today.

Fact: I just woke up and showered and have not started to pack at all.

FAIL. I'll most likely be coming in tuesday instead.

WHICH MEANS I WANT TO HIT UP VERDE AGAIN AT ITS NEW LOCATION!!! It just opened yesterday! All you norcal/cupertino/san jose/saratoga kids know what i'm talking about.

This summer was an eventful one. Half of it in Cambridge, England and the other half in home sweet home. Kicking it with many old friends, kicking it with new friends and sometimes kicking it with these new people and automatically wanting to just kick them in the faces, but it's all good.

I've learned I adapt well to any location whether it's going abroad or coming back home or whatever, but i'm ready for this change back to irvine. I was kinda really not looking forward going back to irvine for awhile but then I started to get bored with life...haha Plus, I need a new surrounding for me to figure things out. Spice it up a bit nawsimsayin? Senior year is finally here and it's gonna go fast. I don't want to be pressured into making the most out of everything. So we will not have none of this "last welcome week"/"last fall quarter"/"last winter quarter"/"last blahblahblah" crap. Instead this year is going to be plain awesome and legendary.

I'm excited why? Because i'm ready.

I'm ready to invest in people.

I'm ready to filter out my life.

I'm ready to work hard.

I'm ready to have muscle memory to the library.

I'm ready to play.

I'm ready to spend late nights/early mornings with the people I love.

I'm ready to drive an hour away for some good food.

I'm ready to start this year.

I'm ready to get on with my life.

Instigator

Some people bring out the best in you and some people bring out the worst.

Which makes you wonder...do you bring out the best or worst in others?

I'd like to believe I bring out the best, but........who am I kidding? I have too much attitude. hahaha

Honestly, i'm an honest person who likes to keep it real. But many times I find myself of crossing the line of being honest to being blunt, which is no good. Because I believe that people should just be real and not fake, I find myself not even trying to censor my thoughts. Just like how lighting is seen before thunder is heard, my mouth is heard before my mind comprehends. Cause I am who am, and you can just take it or leave it. But I really think that I need to tweak my habits a bit. No one's ever come up to me and say "hey, you hurt my feelings" or whatever shizz like that and actually people have told me they like how i'm so real and honest BUTTTTTTTT i'm sure that i've might have accidently stepped on some toes here and there so I gotta keep myself in line. I care for others and I gotta watch in the way I act out that care.

I want to bring out the best in people.

We're In This Together

I love reading my friends' blog, especially when it's something about what's going on in their lives. In a very post-secret-feel, I feel so connected to them without even having to directly talk to them. We're all people who have issues and that's fact. And I love that.

Check Yourself Before You Wreck Yourself

I've been evalutaing my life for a long while now and i've ignored things in my life. But I need to stop ignoring them and take care of them before I wreck myself without even knowing it. I've made wrong choices. Sometimes I make wrong choices knowingly because i'm tired of caring and doing the right thing. And I want to make the wrong choice. I just wanna have fun while being safe at the same time even though I know I shouldn't be doing what it is i'm doing. First off, just to avoid worry, i'm not talking about drugs or anything real crazy.

I really need to purge a lot of things in my life. I've written that line in my journal countless times and have had countless entries where I started to write that but then only to delete it because I didn't know how nor did I want to explain it. And I still don't really know how to explain. More like I don't know how much I really want to share over the internet. That's the problem, often we write posts or something on facebook or AIM profiles that we share only a little, and its cryptic because we want people to know, but at the same time we don't. As result, we leave mystery hoping for that one person or people to know what you're trying to say without you having to say it.

I keep on saying that I need to purge my life, but I need to actually start doing it.

Maybe next entry, i'll share the things I need to purge.

Inspiration

Mmm...it's been coming in and out but I think that I am bored with life. I need some inspiration, some motivation and just plain awesomeness. If those were frozen yogurt flavors, i'd mix them all up together, put some mochi on top and enjoy life.

People are huge inspirations for me. Just talking to them, no matter how smart, dumb, cool, retarded or whatever they are, they always offer certain insights and perspectives on things that sometimes rock your world. Mind stimulation is the best. If you can stimulate my mind, I want you as a friend. If I could be friends with anyyyyyyyyyyyyyybody, like anybody in the world, there's two people I really want to have as friends. like really, really badly. like i'd give up candy for the rest of my life kind-of-badly, and damn......that's pretty bad.

1. Mother Teresa

Okay, I know she's not alive but if she were, I would want her to be my friend, mentor would be even better but hey, whatever. Just how awesome would that be?! She has sooooooooooooooo much wisdom, love and care that it amazes you. A woman of such small stature has gained so much respect from everyone and you just can't hate Mother Teresa, it'd be like a sin if you hated her. If you were to ever yell out "I hate Mother Teresa!" I think I would pray for your soul because i'm pretty sure you'd be beat to death within 5 seconds. What I don't understand is how she continually gave out her heart and soul to people with such humbleness. How does she do it? And how can I be just like her? I would love to go to her for advice and see her view on the world today, the wars, the economy, people's interation, the church and just everything. Anyways, I'd definitely want to have matching necklace halves that said BFF or some shizz like that.

2. Ellen Degeneres

She is fucking amazing. In a TOTALLY different sense from Mother Teresea. But anyways, she has such wit and charisma that I think she could make anything fun. Like if Ellen were to call me up and say "Hey, want to go to the denist and get root canals?" I would probably say, "um, HELL YEA ELLEN!" She's got such a laid back easy feel to her. I would love to go grab drinks with her and hit on women or be hit on and then just laugh late into the night with some cocktails. But of course, eventually i'd tell her i'm straight and then we'd just drink some more and laugh it off. Maybe then she'd say to me "just drink some more and then tell me how that brunette over there looks." And then i'd drink some more, go kiss the brunette and tell Ellen it wasn't that great. Umm...allright this is getting really weird.......but point is, i'm straight. Straight with an over imaginative mind. hahaha Anyways, Ellen has a lot of charm and it would be amazing to talk to her and just see her point on things. I feel that since she's soooooo out that she really widen my perspective on things and shake up my sometimes, really stubborn view. CAN SHE BE MY FRIEND PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?

Mother Teresa, Ellen Degenes and Tiffany Wong. That'd be the greatest friendship trio right there.

I Love Lists.

10 Things I Should Probably Not Do, But Will Do Because I Am Me

1. Sometimes when I drive, I use only one finger. It's usually my right index one.
2. When I shower, I blast the music as I shower and...dance. It really wakes you up.
3. Give my number out to girls at bars, well i've only done it twice. Actually I think i'm going to stop this one because once it was a 28 yr old mom, who could be considered a milf and was funny but now she is texting me and it's a little weird.
4. Point out funny looking people to my friends who then all proceed to look over in such an obvious way that I am ashamed.
5. Wear jeans and flats, and then get the nastiest looking tan on my feet. It looks like a fat strip of dirt.
6. Buy guys clothes/steal guy friend's clothes and wear them. Large shirt? Hello belted dress!
7. Rather than "waste time" and check online what time the place closes, my friends and I will drive all the way there to find out that it closed half an hour ago.
8. Feel obligated to stay up in the wee hours in the morning just because it's summer, but really I want to sleep earlier.
9. Use words like sausage fest and cock blocker in loose terms because some take it the wrong way.
10. The sad thing with laptops is that now I can literally stay in bed all day. This does not go well with the combination of summer.


With that being said, i'm going to get out of bed now and go to the coffee shop and read.