Got Any Extra Change, I Mean Love?

"Being unwanted, unloved, uncared for, forgotten by everybody, I think that is a much greater hunger, a much greater poverty than the person who has nothing to eat."
— Mother Teresa


Mother Tersea's got it to a T. To be emotionally hungry is much worse than being physically hungry. Someone's care sustains a person much longer than a loaf of bread. Humans are emotional beings. Imagine being unwanted, unloved, uncared for and forgotten by everybody. How horrible would that be? Could you imagine that? But there are people and animals out there who fit exactly in those categories. No one should be deprived of care and love. If we can't even give this to others, what kind of an unfortunate human race are we?


Love isn't always those pretty little hearts we draw. Love is realistically much more than that. Love isn't always easy. 

Rogue

"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with."

- Carrie [Sex And The City]

My Heart Yearns For Adventure

Once in awhile I let my mind wander. It's always this one scenario I play out in my head.


I'm at the airport with one small suitcase in my hand, a backpack on and smile on my face. I pull the world map out of my backpack and stare at it for a second. I close my eyes and drop my finger on the map. My eyes open and I see my finger on the Red Sea. Well that won't do. I close my eyes and twirl my finger once again and my finger lands. I open my eyes. Australia. My next destination. I take my life savings and buy a one way ticket to Australia. I would stay there for 6 months, find a nice host family to stay with while I work odd jobs such as waitressing to pay my rent and meals. I would wander the city, see the sights, embrace myself in the culture and meet people of all sorts. After embracing each place i've inhabited and just about settled in, I would up and move on to the next. It would take me 6 months till I would pull out the map once again, close my eyes and choose a new place. And then after another 6 months repeat the process, repeatedly till my heart is content. Without a home, living from paycheck to paycheck, I would be like a hobo of the world. I would wander the world God created, see His creations. I would be a free spirit just learning about life itself and experiencing the beauty and darkness it holds.Could you imagine all the different types of people i'd meet, the stories i'd have?

But then my mind comes back and I remember the things I must accomplish here too. I'll just have to find my own adventure here to pacify my heart.

The "Yo Quiero" Folder

I promise a substantial post will come up soon. Until then, I will share with you a couple pictures. I have a folder on my computer labeled "Yo Quiero" which is translated to "I Want." Here are a few things found in it.

That is all I will share. If you ever get me one of these things from my "Yo Quiero" list, I offer you my lifetime friendship. And a double scoop of ice cream, any flavor.

My Life As It Is

Lately this has been my life. As a Business Economics major and Management minor, my science classes included Birth to Conception and Aids. You know, the real important stuff. haha The last time I took Chemistry was 6 years ago. Technically I should've taken the intro to chem class before this like the other students, but I just got the Dean's approval and skipped it. So basically i'm starting anew and my lack of knowledge in the molecular world is really showing through my frustrations with online homework. I haven't put enough effort in learning the material and with my upcoming exam, homework, pre lab, follow up lab work, this picture you see has become up current weekdays, Friday nights, Saturday afternoons. When you want something, you gotta work for it. And it's definitely time to give up my social life to put in the work that is needed.

I want this.

All right the fire alarm just went off in my coffee shop. Talk about a caffeine buzz kill.

To Be A Bay Area Fan

Now that i'm finally back in my roots, i've been going to some of my firsts of games. Tonight I just came back from a pre season Sharks game against Phoenix (which btw, they won 3-1). Watching hockey in person is definitely kind of exciting. I don't support violence, but I love the fighting involved. But it probably doesn't send a good message out to the kids who watch though. haha And just last weekend, I went to my first Giants game (which we also kicked ass and won, one or two home runs were hit). Honestly, i'm not really a huge baseball fan but it was fun walking around and the atmosphere. Despite these couple of wins, being a bay area fan can really be disheartening sometimes, but that's okay. We believe! I'm really excited for basketball season to support the Warriors, not just for Jeremy Lin's sake either. With the whole Miami Heat and Lakers drama, it'd be really interesting to see who wins the championship this year. My friend has season tickets for the Warriors, i'm crossing my fingers and hoping for her to take me a few times if her fam doesn't go. Or you know my birthday is in May and early season tickets wouldn't be too bad of a gift...........just saying...haha

There's just something really fun about drinking a beer while eating nachos and watching the game live. And what really makes the game fun is the fans. They go wild from their gear to their chanting and jeering. I especially like seeing the kids wearing their cute little jerseys or hats.

When I become a mother, i'm definitely putting my kids in sports camps, whether they're a boy or girl. When they're a baby i'm going to put in front of them a bunch of sports items like a basketball, hockey puck, soccer ball and tennis ball and see what they crawl up to and grab. haha It'll determine their fate. The reason why there's only those items is cause I don't really want them to play anything else. I think all the other sports are kind of boring to watch, like swimming? Yeah, not too down to see my child in a speedo in front of everyone and watch them......just swim. haha I am excited to go to my kid's games and watch them play with my hubby. I just hope our kids don't suck. If my kids end up not liking any sports but rather read books and study, I guess i'll still love them........I mean I guess it'll be okay if they don't end up as a pro athlete but cure cancer instead, i'm not that picky. haha

In any case, i'm excited for all the games to come! Go Bay Area!

The Cycle

Sometimes in life we create another problem to avoid the first problem. But in the end, you just got more problems. People are complicated creatures.

On a side note, I find my spirit to be really restless lately. It's like i'm yearning for something and i'm not quite sure what that is yet.

On another side note, why is it that whenever I do video blogs, it always still freezes on such an unattractive face of mine? And please don't say it's because every face of mine is unattractive. harhar haha But really, every time I come to my blog I see it, and then it makes me a little sad because I look retarded. :(