Every Blessing You Pour Out, I'll Turn Back To Praise

I watched "Nine" recently. It wasn't really my type of movie and I didn't think it was all that great but one thing I took from it is that every girl likes to believe they're special by their man. That they're different from other girls and deserve to be treated differently, with more care. They don't like to be treated as, or thought of as the flavor of week. In the end, no one likes to think that they were like any other girl but instead they were special. Of course this is obvious information though, haha but it amazed me and displeased me how the main character treated his wife and every other girl. Women are meant to be treasured.

I believe God puts you in situations that He knows are testing your limits but still just enough for you to handle as long as you push yourself to. There have been a good amount of situations where I know my head didn't sit right, but I would just convince myself that it's okay and there is good in it. But in the end, I come out of the situation not by my complete choice. God knows better and He knows that i'm still not strong enough to defy my heart and listen to my head so He creates it so that the decision is half made for me and I must follow through. There's not so much as a choice, but obedience. And situations are only half of it, the acts and way you choose to deal with the situation says the most about you. I believe my character is best built in the way I handle things. No matter what, I always strive to take the high road and do things as maturely as I can so I can look back and say, "yeah that was the right thing to do, good job twong." I want to show that when it gets darker, I just shine even brighter. But I realize now that rather than dealing with the consequences, I need to first watch my actions. I don't want to have to do any more damage control. I'm tired of getting hurt and patching myself up. Instead of dealing with the aftermath of situations, i'm going to work on not even placing myself in these situations. I think i'm too naive about certain things and I look too positively about them. It's time to do it right. I want to stick to my ground and make the right choices upfront. But everything, i've gone through, I don't regret them. It's more accepting it for what it is, and to take a lesson and choose what you do with that experience. It's okay, everything is a learning process and I grow stronger. It's amazing how fast things can change and you're thrown into new situations with new goals and a new mindset, but you just gotta keep up and roll with the punches.

One day i'll meet the person that i'll fall in love with. He'll appreciate my horrible sense of humor that's a mix of lame, wacky & sometimes dirty and laugh at them. He'll fall in love with my good traits and love me even more for my flaws. And i'll do the same and learn to support him the best ways I can. And he will treat me like i'm the best thing that ever happened to him because I probably am, shun! hahaha just kidding. :) In the end, he'll be the one I just want to grow old with. And we'll be that cute, old shrunken asian couple you see that still holds hands when they go out. :) Until then..............single life, thas whats up! ;) haaaaaaaaaaa jokes jokes.

It's Called Being Human

i hate this feeling

i hate feeling weak. im a strong person, i really am. but sometimes i lead others on to think i'm stronger than i actually am. sometimes it is because of my pride, and sometimes it is because i care and don't want them to get hurt or feel bad in regards to me.

how can u discern whether or not you should care more for yourself?

when should you just deal and use the experience to make you stronger?

i think too many times i've chosen the latter and i'm really tired.

i hate to admit that i'm not that strong sometimes.

Parties and Mother Stories

If I was allowed to throw the greatest party ever, & all the guests i could invite would be guarented to come I would invite...

Tiffany's Legend...wait for it...dary Guest List:

stephen colbert

for politic comic relief

bobby lee

for some asian lovin'

ellen degeneres

for some lesbian lovin' and comic relief and bc she's just awesome

britney spears

for some crazy. who knows after a few drinks...she & ellen could be best buds.

taylor swift

for some good tunes

kanye west

so he could interrupt her

tiger woods

to start some drama

puck from glee

for some eye candy

the other asian in glee

just because i like them asians

tila tequila

for shits & giggles.

hmmmmmmm i might invite some other people, but that is one legit guest list right there. throw in some food, drinks and me and that would be the most epic party EVAR.

Anyways..........update on the mother stories.

Every time I come home my mom loves to hand me some advice.

There was that one time my mother told me to learn how to bake bc that's what apparently attracts guys.

one month later.....she then advises me that if I date two guys, to not let them know about each other.

Um.

1. Why are you telling me this first of all?

2. Why would you encourage this mom???

3. DUH! Why would I let them know about each other??? That's just common sense! Please mom, your daughter knows whatsup.

haha anyways This morning before I went to church, my mom told me not to drink and drive......because that's obviously very useful information before I go to church. And also because I slept at like 11PM the night before, yes I slept at 11PM on a Saturday night. I am lame, please do not judge. haha And during dinner, my mom tells me that she read that 10% of guys on Christmas day are looking for a one night stand and to be careful to not be tricked by guys...because you know on Christmas night, things get a little crazy..........right..........haha But that is sad and pathetic for guys to look for one night stands on Christmas. Way to try to cash in on someone's holiday loneliness. *sigh*

haha enough blabber. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Baby, It's Getting Cold Outside

You know sometimes when you study, and your leg falls asleep? Like...my left leg right now.......and when this happens while i'm studying, I get really sad and jealous because parts of my body are asleep but I am not! I know it's ridiculous to be jealous of like your own leg, but that's how it is! You wish you were asleep like your foot, but alas you are not and can not. Sigh* Fail. What a tease.

It's getting really cold, and rainy. I don't really like the cold and rain, :( I like warm weather and the sun, so my wardrobe consists mainly of summer wear even though......I am a norcal kid. I'm a little bit of a disgrace to norcal weather bc i'm a baby when it gets to cold weather but whatever, i'll just throw in some hella's and redeem my norcal pride. But anyways when it's cold and rainy, my favorite thing to do is drink hot coco with a lot of marshmallows and sleep listening to the pitter patter of the rain, knowing that I am dry and warm in my bed or.........drinking yogurt soju and eating ddukbokki isn't half bad either. :P Seriously, that hits the spot and reminds me of this one night I had in Hong Kong. :)

Mmmmmmmm, finals are here and I can not wait for them to be over. This quarter has kind of been extreme, I had four classes this quarter, all being upper div classes and one being Econometrics 122B (a.k.a the hardest econ class for Bus. Econ majors). And with those four classes, I have had 7 midterms & 1 group project/paper. What the kwakkkkkkkkkk?!?! MID-terms, as in middle of a term, they're not supposed to be every other week! I literally had a midterm every week, except one week and that is kind of ridic. But whatever, I handled it, decently enough at least.

But all in all, i'm thankful for many things. As for now though.......I wish my professors just believed that I actually learned something and didn't feel the need to test me. C'mon, i'm trustworthy! O:)

sigh* back to studying!

What's Up With Society?

Another theory of mine...

There are so many trends in our society and the media that come so fast, it's hard to keep up!

1. First we had the whole being lesbian thing. Examples: the Britney & Madonna kiss on TV, songs about being lesbian like Lady Gaga's "Poker Face." The song is actually about Lady Gaga saying that when she's with a man, she is really thinking of a woman and keeps on a poker face. And then the song "I Kissed A Girl" by Katy Perry. Did you know Katy Perry started out as a Christian singer at first? And then Lindsay Lohan went lesbian on us, aside from becoming lesbian, girl has issues period. And also that whole Tila Tequila reality show about choosing a man OR woman for her dating life. Not gonna lie, but uhhh...I kept up with that show my sophomore year. haha it was intriguing and had its moments. But yeahhhhhh anways, point and case.

2. Second, the whole Indian thing was becoming popular. Bombay par-tayyyyyyyyyy. Slumdog Millionaire came out, GREAT MOVIE btw, and Indian girls are really pretty. Indian guys however....there are some but it's not common....at all. Anyways, Jai Ho was on the radio and even the Pussycat Dolls sang a version of it and in the music the girl dresses like an Indian even though she's not, but she really passes off as it. For our Senior banquet, ever year I push the Bombay party as the theme for it but i'm always shot down. However last year, they made the mistake of asking me to point lead it....muwahhaha and I had our whole Edge class dance do a Jai Ho performance, which was AMAZING BTW.

3. Third, cougars!!! Hot moms, and cougars. There are shows and dang, I don't know. Cougars are just really in at the moment! There's a show that Courtney Cox does called The Cougar, it's a series not a reality show but it's not very good, which made me really sad because I thought there was a lot of potential there. But the show just isn't really well written. Anyways, there was also a cougars convention in SF this summer. http://blogs.sfweekly.com/thesnitch/2009/08/hello_ladies_fur_flies_at_bay.php?page=1 As you can see these pictures, the women are not that hot for cougars but silicon up the wahoooooooooo for sure. Maybe the economy is bad and boys are looking for sugar mamas but there is a growing demand for cougars and there's a good amount too!

In conclusion, according to all these fads the hottest thing right now should be an Indian woman who is a cougar who goes for younger girls. Hm...........oh society, what have you done to us?

Because Love Is Good

I love fat stuffed animals

I love waking up to a room full of sunshine

I love finding out that I have all my pairs of sock in the laundry

I love earrings

I love starving for a day then eating all you can eat Krn BBQ for dinner with ice cream

I love my friends

I love it when people laugh at my jokes

I love baking egg tarts for people I like

I love trying new things

I love surprises (good ones)

I love finding out something was cheaper than you thought at the register

I love hugs (from certain people)

I love juice & pmt & thai iced teas

I love sleeping in the car when someones driving

I love scenic drives with good music

I love spontaneity

I love deepening my relationships

I love girly alcoholic drinks

I love the smell of fresh laundry

I love good conversations

I love cheap hangouts

I love it when people are more awkward than me

I love it when people try to make me smile

I love it when I brighten someone's day

I love honesty and genuineness

& last but definitely not the least...

I love sleep. So goodnight. going to work on my paper later at the time crunch, sighs.

You Do What You Gotta Do

Do you have a friend who studies last minute the night before and gets an A? The friend who plays all day and then starts to cram at 2AM and gets that A? Or the the who parties all night, wakes up at 5AM and writes their 15 page essay and somehow manages to get an A-? And don't you hate that friend? It sucks.

Now would you rather work really hard and earn an A,

or barely put any effort, do it last minute and earn an A?

Majority of us would choose the latter.

Why is that?

What is so horrible about the idea of putting so much of yourself into something in hopes to achieve great results? But we all rather take the easy route and hope to reap the same benefits. The thing is we're lazy. We rather work half as hard and earn just as much.

But that's not how it should work, and actually that's not how the world works.

Maybe we're afraid of failure. We're afraid to put yourself out there and failing because you end up with nothing and you're hurt. And you might look dumb. But if you were to just half ass something and not get the desirable results, then you see it as well deserved and you didn't really risk anything so it's no big deal.

But if you were to put in the effort and excelled at it, wouldn't you putting in all that effort make it so much more worthy? Would you feel so much more accomplished? And if you tried and failed, doesn't it say something about your character that you tried and gave it your all?

We, and certainly I, half ass a lot of things. I rather play it safe. That needs to end. I want to tap into that passion where I am not afraid to put myself out there. Where I hunger for it and am willing to work hard for it, sweat for it. We're meant to do some things in this world with all our heart, mind, body & soul. We need to start taking risks, and risk ourselves instead of half ass-ing things to get what we want. We need to start earning it.

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