I'm Full Of Good Ideas

Good Ideas List

1. They should make a television series about DMV people in The Office style. Definite potential there.

2. Offer a slide right next to the stairs, so you have two options. Option 1: Stairs Option 2: Slide

3. Have little tasers that shock you when you start tangent-ing from your studies.

4. Create an iphone/blackberry/everyphone app that lets your phone be a taser too so you can tase (is that even the right verb?) the creepies. Forget pepper spray! Attacked by a rapist? Bust out your cellphone! Free taser-ing after 7pm on weekdays and all day and night on weekends.

5. Let every noun feel like it's a verb by adding -ing to the end of it. I am water bottle-ing (drinking water from a water bottle) or beach-ing or chair-ing or hot dog-ing, see how easy it is?! And fun?!?! Nouns ought to get in on the fun the verbs are having too.

6. There should be a day where everyone has their earphones in, listening to music on their ipods or whatever choice of mp3 player they have, okay who am I kidding? Everyone and their moms have a fcking ipod, just like facebook. Anyways, tangent but everyone listens their to their own music and dances to it at the same time. So we're all dancing to our own music while living out our normal lives doing normal things. Can you imagine? Walking to class and every student is dancing to their own ipod music. That would be legendary. There's a term for that though, it's a dance when everyone's in a room listening to their own ipod and dancing, i forget what it's called though but yeah, let's bring it into the outside world!

Side note, found out someone I know now has a fiancée from an arranged marriage. That is crazy. Arranged marriages I would put on the Bad Idea List. haha But i'm glad it's working out for him because apparently at first when he met her, he didn't like her but now is in love with her. Crazy how love works sometimes. Actually I take that back, crazy how love works all the time.

Daily Life

it's late night/early morning at Gateway and i have a midterm i'm supposed to be studying for since the midterm is tomorrow but alas, i am blogging. go figure.

The Daily Events in My Life Today

Moment 1

I live nearby campus so i just walk to school and i walk through UTC. Today as I was walking to campus, this old man probably in his 50's who was dressed fairly nice in a casual suit or whatever and he has red hair. As I noticed him and wondered why his hair was so much redder than his eyebrows, and if he was wearing a wig, he comes up to me and asks me "Excuse me, do you know where I parked?" Ummmm.......haha I think I stood there for a good 3 seconds wide eyed and confused. I eventually got to my senses and just answered "Sorry, I don't know..." Then he forgave me with an "It's okay" and left. haha but what in the world??? why would I know where he parked? Poor guy.

Moment 2

Books are way too expensive and the library one's on reserve were all checked out so...I ended up going to the UCI bookstore at the basement where all the textbooks are at and I sat on the floor with my laptop on to type up notes, my papers spread out next to me and i'm reading the textbooks. So ghetto. Students would pass by me to buy the books as I was sitting there like a bum. haha Although a couple of students also ended up talking to me and one even ended up joining me and doing the same thing. haha Yay for saving $$$.

Moment 3

J.chiang and K.ko went to Gateway after small groups to do some studying and long story short we share this table with these lesbian fobs. I have no idea what they were doing, but there was a major flirt sesssion/fighting? I don't know but damn, stop flirting over a pencil and just both get your own! yeesh. And then there were a couple of gentle-ISH slaps to the face that we all had to pretend to ignore. Eventually, it just ended up being me and the said lesbian couple for awhile. Awkwardness when you're trying to study and they're like petting each other's hair.

Moment 4

So now i'm by myself at the table (Thank God) and these 2 guys from the table next to me came up to me cause I guess my papers were out for the class, since we have the midterm tomorrow and then they asked if I was taking Econ 149. I said "yes" .......and that essentially was the conversation as they stood there for a bit. Awesome moments. Five minutes later, one of the guys comes over with his bottle of Xytenil or wtv gum (you know that Korean brand gum) and offers it to me. I kindly declined but that was nice of him I suppose.

Now that I have sufficiently wasted my studying time, I shall study for 15 minutes then go back home for some Z's. Nice.

The Best Kind Of Ships

Red ships. Blue ships.

but the best kind of ships

are Friendships.

Every kind of relationship takes works. There's understanding each other, hashing things out, giving in when need be, caring for each other and last but definitely not least, loving each other. My friendship will always be up for grabs for anyone because I love people. But the certain ones that we've invested time and care and have gotten close, I really value those friendships. Those small handful of people I call my good friends, I view their friendships just the same way I view marriage. It's a commitment. & at the end of the day, I just want to grow old with you. As time goes on, people change and naturally our feelings will change too. Yeah there will be days of frustration and annoyances but those days will follow up with forgiveness and smiles. And as sad as it is, there might be a day where you feel like your love for the person diminishes. But a commitment is a commitment & I want you to know that i'll always be there for the long haul and I got your back. We go through life experiencing different things and those experiences will continually shape who we are. Whoever you turn to out to be, I will always love you for you, though at times it may be hard. I'm thankful for all the gems that God has placed in my life. But we all know that relationships are a two way street so let's never give up on each other yeah? :]

There's Always Two Sides To Every Story...

Came across this & thought i'd share...

Her Side of the Story

He was in an odd mood when I got to the bar, I thought it might have been my fault because I was a bit late but he didn't say anything much about it.

I don't remember doing anything to make him upset, but I could tell there was something wrong. The conversation was quite slow going so I thought we should go off somewhere more intimate so we could talk more privately.

We went to this restaurant and he was STILL acting a bit funny. I was getting really worried, what did I do? What was bothering him? Was he mad at me?

I tried to cheer him up, but started to wonder what was bothering him. Was it me or something else? I asked him if he was upset with me, and he said “No”.

But I wasn’t really sure.

So anyway, in the cab on the way back to his house, I said that I love him, and he just put his arm around me! I didn’t know what the hell that meant because, you know, he doesn’t say it back or anything.

We finally got back to his place and I was wondering if he was going to break up with me! Why didn’t he want to talk about this? So I tried to ask him about it, but he just switched on the TV. Why would he rather watch TV than talk to me?

Reluctantly, I said I was going to go to sleep, hoping he would get the hint that I was upset and wanted to talk. I was so hurt that he was out there watching TV while I was in here going through emotional turmoil.

Then after about 10 minutes, he joined me and we had sex.

I thought that maybe he would open up after we shared an intimate experience like that, but he still seemed really distracted. So afterward, I just wanted to leave because I was so upset, but I just cried myself to sleep.

He didn’t even notice how upset I was! I don’t know, I just don’t know what he thinks anymore. I don’t know what to feel anymore. I’m on emotional overload. I’m so confused. I don’t think he loves me anymore.

Why does he have to play mind games with me? I mean, do you! think he’s met someone else???

His Side of the Story

Lakers lost. Felt kinda tired. Got laid though.

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HAHAHA

Actually it's not really funny because the sad thing is that it's so true.
I shared this with my roomie and we both agreed on how stupid but how accurate it's representation was.

Guys are simple & dipshits and girls think too much.
That's just kind of how it is.

All Over The Place

Wow.

I am so incredibily drained,

physically.emotionally.spiritually.

Time to turn this life back on track

not really sure where to start.

I'm working on self control

and denying myself.

I'm continually tested with decisions

and today I made a good one.

It's not much but...

i'm taking baby steps.

we all got our vulnerable times.

& i'm just not used to it.

i haven't felt like this for awhile.

Oh Daily Life...

It's week two.

I'm a 4th year and yesterday I got lost and couldn't find my disc class for the longest time. -______- I had to call my friends and one of them looked it up online where my class was. Turns out I went to the wrong building and went to HH instead of HIB. Fail. And then walking back home, this little white blonde girl tried to holler at me from her car when her mom picked her up from dance class. She literally leaned out her car window and said "wassup" with the head nod and half eyes opened thing. Wow...

But anyways, I can't believe it's only the start of week two because I feel like i've been here for a month already. Crazy! But Irvine life is good. It's a different feel being a senior. Everyone looked so young when I first went to campus. I feel like a BOSS as I strut on campus to my classes. hahaha jk Anyways, I just need to find a job now and my life will be temporarily complete. :)

Perhaps a more insightful entry later.

Don't Ever Settle

Settling often also leads to wonders of "what could have's." Settling solves things temporary but in the long run it leads to dissatisfaction. By not settling, you persevere despite temptations or because you're tired and want the easy way out or you've grown impatient. Instead you hold out for what you want and that's where true happiness lies.

"Don't ever settle"

Sophomore year in college, that was written all up on my mirrors and post it's. There are times to settle, like when you're in a ridiculous argument with a good friend and you just gotta take it and leave it there, but we're not talking about those moments. I didn't realize till a couple weeks ago that I was settling the past year or two and up till really recently I was in denial with myself about it. The great thing is that once you identify the problem, you can solve it. So i'm going back to the start & I'm not going to settle anymore. Things will be done pure of heart with good intentions. But I gotta constantly remind myself. And I pray for God to help me keep myself accountable.

& He said to me...

why are you in a hurry

there are greater things out there