The Stars Are Bright Tonight

i love just who you are

i ain't gonna try to change ya

you are a shooting star

thats why you are my favorite

that part of the song makes me really happy

i see a lot of shooting stars :)

but i am the biggest shooting star, HEHE

okay just kidding, :( I am lame and am in need of sleep.

Meet F.A.T

Meet F.A.T. & i'm not going to tell you what it stands for cause.......eh there's no need. We are a set of 3 made of a Korean, Japanese & Chinese (it's probably not hard to guess which is which lol). But they are 2 of my really good friends. We've known each other since Freshman year when Ji & I were in the same small group (B.E.A.C.H.I.E.S) and Jason was in our brother small group (S.A.T.A.N). Acronyms all up in here for sure. haha They are a huge blessing in my life and i'm thankful for good company.

So Jason is Japanese but is wayyyyyy into Korean culture, like he knows some of the kpop dance moves shizz and Ji is Korean but is wayyyyyyy into the Japanese culture and can speak more Japanese than Jason. And I...am Chinese. hahaha Yea, I don't know those two need to be swapped. Anyways, I love spending time with them because we get each other and the three of us just mesh well and work.

Interesting Facts Quiz

Who do you think.............

1. Plays the most video games, i.e. DOTA, Left 4 Dead, Call of Duty?

2. Watches the most Korean dramas?

3. Had braces all throughout college till beginning of Senior year college?

4. Is the hairiest?

5. Watches anime?

6. Built their own computer?

7. Has finished a whole birthday cake by themself?

8. Has a tattoo?
9. One foot swells when dancing?

10. Dislikes feet?

11. Loves smirnoff ices?

Correct answers:

1. Ji

2. Tiffany

3. Jason

4. Jason

5. Ji

6. Ji

7. Tiffany
8. Ji

9. Jason

10. Tiffany

11. Jason & Tiffany

Now wasn't that fun?! haha gosh, i'm cheesy........btw you prob could figure out who was the gamer by looking at her headphone set. LOL

So I get a text from Ji asking if I want to run a 5k or 10k marathon. My first initial thought was OH HELL NO!!!!!!!! The only 5k I wanna see is 5k in my bank account, thas wassup. But she was really excited about the idea, training for it, and having a goal, yadda yadda all that good shiz. I don't know about running the whole thing but it'd be nice to say I accomplished a marathon in my life. But i'd mainly want to do this cause I want to support her and help her be accountable. So I guess i'm down............haha Jason is up for it and we're all going to be doing this together. Ji said apparently there's marathons at night where you run in the streets with music and dancers at each down point, and i'm definitely down for that. haha I really feel that this decision is going to come back and bite me in the ass though *sigh* Time to start using my jump rope more now as pre game training. hahaha

Anyone wanna volunteer that night to drive/wheelchair me out wherever my body collapses? thanks! <3

Reconnect

In high school, I used to find comfort in seeing my friends online really late at night when I was online late studying or doing whatever. It brought me comfort to know that I wasn't alone, especially during the frustrating times of studying. I could complain to them and we would bitch over things in a fun matter as in the "this sucks so much that there's no need for vacuum cleaners bc it sucked all the dirt in the world already" kind not the emo "eff the world!!!!! I want to go to a dark, dark hole where cute animals go to die and cry" kind. Now i've noticed that when you stay up late on AIM, old friends or friends you don't normally talk to IM you. It's a pleasant surprise when i'm studying and these random IM boxes pop up. I guess when you're all up for your own reasons, we like to connect with one another. We enjoy the company of one another, even when it's just online. And as the nights get later & later, your inhibitions also get lower & lower and you're more real with each other. Sometimes you have silly conversations and if you're lucky, you get a real good conversation once in awhile. Or I also like the short IM conversations that basically consist of them telling you to go to sleep because they care for your well being. It's nice to talk to a friend you usually don't talk to or haven't talked to in awhile. There's a reconnection.

I like that.

I Like You Just The Way You Are

Some people feel they need to prove themselves to people. Sometimes I watch this happen, and it makes me cringe. Like the cringe when you see a really awkward moment in a movie and that person just makes it worse by doing more awkward things, so you turn away because you can't watch it anymore cause it gets to the point where it hurts you to watch kinda cringe. It makes me sad because they're really actually embarrassing themselves. Like there's this one guy i've sort of known since freshman year, and all of a sudden he's doing things out of his character like getting his ears pierced and then makes a big deal about it, when it's really whatevers. And he does other things that are just weird because it's coming from him and it seems like he's trying too hard. I don't like it and I think it's super weird and by default, makes me not want to get to know him at all. It saddens me. Then again, I can't say much because I don't really know him, so i'm really not in any place to say anything but these are just my observances.

In all generality though, I wish people didn't feel like they need to prove themselves. I feel that today's society really cultivates those emotions. By throwing out so much visuals from the media among other things, it invokes the ugly side of being human. We get too much of a fcking high from looking down at people to feel superior, that results in people feeling incompetent because they fall short of whatever superficial standards we hold. There's a lot of negative energy in the world. We joke around with each other, taking jabs at each other for a good laugh (i'm guilty of this) and at times, it can be too much, too far. We can joke with each other but it should be at a healthy dose. We have to remember that we're here to lift each other up and encourage one another. If we did more encouraging, then maybe people wouldn't feel as pressured to change to fit in the social norms. I got keep on remembering that words go a long way and a simple smile or kind words can really uplift a person.

On-a-completely-superfical-side-note: Update on my purchases status. Today i opened the jump rope first. then immediate following by the opening of the chocolate, then the gummy bears. Then I jumped like 10 times, and my chocolate bar is half eaten now. Whoops. BUT we celebrated j.chiang's b-day and we ended up at dnbs. I played the jump rope a few times so it really just all balances out. It's my rationality and i'm sticking to it.

The Nights Are Young & I'm Only 21

Honesty comes out best late at nights. You're less inhibited and things come out so much easier. Especially when you just came back from a night out with the girls and even though you got some food in you, you're a bit buzzed still, but I will let you know that i'm definitely not the worst outta of us and second to the one in best shape, first being the DD. hahaha I still can take care of my friends, thats whatsup. Lily's in the closet right next to me throwing up in a bag as i'm blogging this...HAHA but i'm checking up on her & she's good. Anyways I do apologize ahead of time for the rambles i'm about to unravel.

Some times things are better left unsaid, but then some times things are better said. It's hard to discern between the two but in all honesty, people need to be just straight up sometimes. I hate it when people are passive aggressive. And on another sub note, actually never mind, i'll leave it there.

I'm very thankful for my community of friends, Christian & non-Christian. I'm blessed to have quite a good amount who really care and look out for me, and rejoice with me in my good times and empathize with me in the bad. I have my worries about things but my friends keep me in check and remind me how it is to be a woman in Christ. I remember when I used to be the one to spit out the legit reasoning to my friends, but the tables have turned. It's all about glorifying the Lord in all aspects of my life. I just have to remind myself and keep myself in check that i'm doing things with good intentions, a good heart and clean hands.

In the past I used to talk about this quite a bit but this is still a strong belief of mine. Do things with good intentions, and only then can good things come out of it. If you do things with bad intentions, bad things will follow through. If you do things with bad intentions, how do you expect any good to come out of it? It's like the apple doesn't fall far from the tree, your roots are where it's at and only a good tree will bear good fruit. So here's to living to doing things with good intentions and clean hands. Holla.

Goodnight & thank God for daylight savings.

One Step Forward, Two Steps Backwards

So in attempt to finally be able to reach my 2 everyday goals (1. drink a water bottle a day, 2. jump rope everyday), I finally got myself to Target (my favorite) and bought a jump rope today. Did you know that they aren't in the toy's section??? I was dumb founded. Instead I found them in the Sporting Goods section, which for some reason really depresses me. I wanted a jump rope that was pink with like care bears or some other cute shit on the handles, but instead I got this ugly gray thing with blue handles. How depressing. Since when was jump rope such a serious thing? Well I guess the kid's jump rope wouldn't have worked out anyways since they're a lot shorter than I am. But still, why aren't there any cute jump rope for the kiddies? This is why the kids in America are so obese. I couldn't find my all time favorite skip it or any jump ropes, the good o' games of our childhood. There's no more active games for the kids, I mean how fit are kids really going to get with Barbies and Hot Wheels? I don't know. I'm going to trick my kids in the future to take out the trash as a game so they can get some fresh air and get some circulation in their legs.

As you can tell, I also purchased gummy bears (the white are my favs) and chocolate (the only chocolate without nuts/toffee I like is Lindor).

Buying of the jump rope: one step forward

Buying of candy: two steps backwards

At least we're moving somewhere!

I'll later update you in which ones get unwrapped first and last.

Stop Putting Me On Blast!

Damn.

So ill lil & I were at albertson's to pick up some essential items. Now I had just picked up some wings (chicken or actually lily and i both picked up the latter wings too, TMI probably), potato wedges & macaroni salad for dinner and didn't want my dinner to keep getting cold so ill lil is wondering what to choose for dinner and says to me she wants something healthy. I then say "Just get a healthy TV dinner and let's go!" And then like 20 feet away this tall, husky, rounded belly, white man yells back to me "THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A HEALTHY TV DINNER!!!" What the heck?! Where did this large white man come from and why is he calling me out?! haha I make a comment about lean cuisines in my defense and he then proceeds to make jokes about cheese and makes jabs at my statement and i'm not really sure what he is saying because i'm just laughing since I don't know what to say and 1. I can't believe he heard my first statement like at least 20 feet away from me in the dairy area when i'm in another aisle and 2. Can't believe that he would put me, a poor defensive little azn girl (insert puppy dog eyes) on blast!

BUT WHY ARE PEOPLE CALLING ME OUT? First my professor and now tall, husky, white man. sighs.

On top of that, j.tang visits me at night, and as I drink my large can of Arizona Green tea with ginseng and honey (99 cent best deal ever), I miss my mouth and it hits my face.

What is going on with my life?!?!