The Simple Joys In Life

My friend dropped her puppy off for me to babysit for a couple of hours. Isn't he SUPER cute?!?!?! You don't understand how excited I was when she asked me too. haha If you've read my old entries, you'd know i've been itching to play with a puppy or baby (which ever comes first) forevers. Louie chased me around and once it was all tuckered out from playing with my roommates and me, it napped next to me while I was trying to study. :)

haha okay enough with the superficialness of these latest entries...I will write something substantial later, perhaps tonight as I will most likely be procrastinating from studying my midterm that is tomorrow. I can not wait for friday to be here!

Contradictory Pairings

Let's say you go to Target or Albertson's or whatever and you bring up your items to the cashier and your items just don't seem right together. For example...

Baby diapers and adult diapers.

A funnel, a long tube and 2 gallons of milk.

An emo cd and a razor.

A pregnancy test and a bottle of alcohol.

A chain saw and a bottle of alcohol.

5 Barbies and a bottle of alcohol.

Okay, probably a lot of things and a bottle of alcohol. haha

Some things just don't go together. I'm just sayin'.......

A Little Bit Of My Heart Just Jumped

I don't know what it is...maybe the maternal instinct is finally kicking up or I don't even know, but for the past couple weeks i've had the HUGEST craving to play with babies and/or puppies. HEHE isn't that baby so cute? I love his smile and his fat cheeks! I hope when I have kids, they'll be fat babies because no one likes a skinny baby. Those are just disturbing. Well actually I hope my kid isn't chubby ASAP outta the womb, bc i'm such it's going to be a bitch already getting that little sucker out into the world but I hope afterwards he/she gets really chubby because that would make me really happy. hehe Well chubby only until he/she is like 5 because then they need to make friends and we all know society can be a bitch. *sigh* haha And those puppies are absolutely adorable! I could definitely spend a whole afternoon and more frolicking with them. :) :) :)

I think i'm going to re-volunteer at Noah's Place at church again so I can play with the babies. :) Okay, I really hope that didn't come off creepy. :(

Anyways, that is all!

Really Now???

Midterm tomorrow and just received an e-mail from the professor.

Hi everyone, Please make sure you use the restroom (potty) before the midterm exam. There will be no bathroom breaks allowed during the exam.  If you use the restroom, please wash your hands before entering the classroom.   Ethan

I didn't know what a restroom was but potty I do for sure! This was definitely an important e-mail. Sigh. Back to studying.

Pick Me Up & Let's Go Somewhere

Photo taken by the beautiful & talented Felicia

Waiting.

Sometimes when you're not sure about something, all you can do is wait. I'm waiting for something and I don't know what. Perhaps an opportunity to come and whisk me away. To sweep me away under the current, where I don't have any control. Sometimes control is unnecessary when you want to truly embrace an experience. Life at times can seem to be just routine and mundane, nothing is really a surprise. The same things happen in just different contexts. The same situation, with different people. Same same but different different. Not to say my friends bore me or anything because my friends are amazing. But we can't get too comfortable with life. Life and God has so much to offer and I want to take all that it has to offer. There is so much out there I don't know about. The raw humanness of the homeless. The sunrise on top of a mountain. How a computer is made from scratch. The sorrows of a single mother. The innocence in child's smile. The regrets of an unsuccessful gambler. Beautiful scenery. God's love and grace.

Breathless moments. Excitement. Adventure. Passion. Sadness. Beauty. Love.

There's a lot of experiences that I have yet to experience. Emotions for me to feel. Stories I have yet to hear. Stories I have yet to tell. People I have yet to meet. Ships of the friend I have yet to develop. Risks I have yet to take. And finding my personal legend.

I want it all. I don't want to miss out on anything or anyone.

It's Okay To Feel Pain

So I think i'm getting sick. The early symptoms are showing up where my throat starts to hurt more and more, i'm getting colder and my forehead feels a bit hot. I would like to take just a moment to shake my fist in the air (sadly not for fist pumping purposes) and yell "DAMN YOU RAIN!" All right, moving on...actually sometimes I don't mind being sick if it's not during finals week or anything real important. Being sick is like a humble reminder to be thankful for my health. It reminds me to be thankful I can breathe with both nostrils, and that I have energy to do fun things, and my throat doesn't feel like a midget's tiny hand is down there and that life is just so much better with good health. You experience the temporary pains to realize how good, the good is.

I realize that a common thing I do is that I really downplay my pains. I feel that yea what i'm going through does suck, but how can I really say that in comparison to some other people's struggles? Some people are going through so much more, or feel so much more pain that my heart goes out to them. My pains seem so insignificant in comparison and I feel guilty for even feeling sad about my pain. And on top of that, I think I refuse to let or even admit that these pains actually really do affect me. However I have to realize that my pains are my own and even though they may seem small...to me they are the only and therefore the biggest pains I have. God works through me through my own pains, and I can't and shouldn't compare my pains to another. Comparison if not done in a manner to motivate you, can really destruct you. Sometimes I get comments from friends who tell me that I am really strong, and while I am, don't let me fool you completely. While l won't let these things get the best of me and own me, i'm not actually that strong. I have my moments where I wish I could let my immaturity win and do whatever I want, but it's just that I really try to make the choice not to. I try to get over things by just logically thinking about how to take it all in and process it. Instead of admitting my hurt, I try to overcome it as fast as I can. But sometimes we're meant to go through the pain. My pains are not insignificant. It's time to embrace my own pain and not feel guilty about feeling that way. To be honest, things really aren't that bad at all, but I can't say that i'm not affected by it all. Doesn't matter cause God uses every situation. Let this be the catalyst for good things and changes to come.

Everything is in Your hands.

There's a positive to every negative.

Decisions, Decisons...

So turns out that Chinese New Years/Valentines day weekend is going to be a 4 day weekend for me. yayyyyyyyyyyy :) I don't have class on fridays and that monday I won't have class since it's President day. So I have 3 options.

Option 1: Vegas that weekend.

My friend and her friends are going and one of them have a condo there or something, so I could go and meet up. Except people are flying or coming from norcal, so I checked the flights and it'd be like $200 round trip for me. Even with the free stay, that's definitely not really worth it. Plus, i'll probably going after finals week in March for lily's birthday so shrugs* But Vegas would be fun though...

Option 2: Go back home to norcal.

My friend and I might just drive back up for the weekend. Talking about just the idea with her got me all giddy. I miss Chinese food and my doggie. And my parents really miss me and I miss them and just home in general cause otherwise I won't be home till Spring Break. And i'm Chinese, it's Chinese New Years and I love red envelopes! But who knows cause not a whole lot of people would be back home in norcal to kick it.

Option 3: Stay in socal, have dinner with kawana and just play with friends.

haha The original plan was to have dinner with my friend kawana on vday, but since it's a 4 day weekend, everything changes. haha jk! But it's okay cause I know he would love to go home too. :) But this would be fun and relaxing. & I really want to see the movie "Valentines Day"

Fickle minded I ams. Anyways, I have some major homework to do right now. :(

Someone choose for me! Kthanks!