It's Okay To Feel Pain

So I think i'm getting sick. The early symptoms are showing up where my throat starts to hurt more and more, i'm getting colder and my forehead feels a bit hot. I would like to take just a moment to shake my fist in the air (sadly not for fist pumping purposes) and yell "DAMN YOU RAIN!" All right, moving on...actually sometimes I don't mind being sick if it's not during finals week or anything real important. Being sick is like a humble reminder to be thankful for my health. It reminds me to be thankful I can breathe with both nostrils, and that I have energy to do fun things, and my throat doesn't feel like a midget's tiny hand is down there and that life is just so much better with good health. You experience the temporary pains to realize how good, the good is.

I realize that a common thing I do is that I really downplay my pains. I feel that yea what i'm going through does suck, but how can I really say that in comparison to some other people's struggles? Some people are going through so much more, or feel so much more pain that my heart goes out to them. My pains seem so insignificant in comparison and I feel guilty for even feeling sad about my pain. And on top of that, I think I refuse to let or even admit that these pains actually really do affect me. However I have to realize that my pains are my own and even though they may seem small...to me they are the only and therefore the biggest pains I have. God works through me through my own pains, and I can't and shouldn't compare my pains to another. Comparison if not done in a manner to motivate you, can really destruct you. Sometimes I get comments from friends who tell me that I am really strong, and while I am, don't let me fool you completely. While l won't let these things get the best of me and own me, i'm not actually that strong. I have my moments where I wish I could let my immaturity win and do whatever I want, but it's just that I really try to make the choice not to. I try to get over things by just logically thinking about how to take it all in and process it. Instead of admitting my hurt, I try to overcome it as fast as I can. But sometimes we're meant to go through the pain. My pains are not insignificant. It's time to embrace my own pain and not feel guilty about feeling that way. To be honest, things really aren't that bad at all, but I can't say that i'm not affected by it all. Doesn't matter cause God uses every situation. Let this be the catalyst for good things and changes to come.

Everything is in Your hands.

There's a positive to every negative.